memoiRs Of tHe dyiNg

there are really a lot of things that made me realize about myself for the past two days of break of my life..

1. when things build up in my life, they build up.. i smile my problems away..laugh it all off..if possible ignore..it may not be obvious..but each night i cry..but when light comes, i smile and try(which happens most of the time) to hide what i trully really feel.. i quote yeng "ana man juD kah..pirmi lang ‘okay’ ang tubag bsta pangutan-on ‘musta ka?’"..well, that’s me..but if i am fed uP of the NEGATIVE vibes around me, i explode..and those at the top..those that made me go boom..those that were the latest negatives, are the LUCKY ones to taste my anger…sori mak..^^..and when i am done exploding(which is really a short span of time as long as i have someone/sumting to burst with), i smile..and i’m okay again..hehe..THAT IS ME ANGRY..^^
2. my family is a big part of my life..just missing a big event(such as a reunion) is a really big deal for me..(note my anger on previous post)..it’s a good thing mu uncle offered me for us to go to minaulon for the reunion..i was happy..i’LL post pictures later..i love my family..and i am really proud that i am a MARCERA-OLIVEROS ghel..(i won raffle..20pesos..enough for 24-hr unLi)..ahehehe..
3. my uncle..he takes care of us in many ways..it doesn’t matter how much money he spends just to make you happy..it doesn’t matter how many times he "libre" you..what matters most..is how many times he went out of his way just to make you happy..that is my uncle..tito beling..evry mowning he would make hatod me..if im home alone, he would dine/eat with me..offer to do things..he even went with me sa parlor..that is my tito..i know he’ll always be here..^^..an im happy he is..

well..those are the things, im sure about my self..there are somethings i’m not yet sure of..and i hope, he’ll/she’ll show to me just how sure he/she is..im just happy that she/he is here..and im praying that he’ll stay..ILOVEYOUALL..^^

and i thought my day was going to be soooooOOO nicE!!!

xet u all..and i wonder why i would always find excuses jUst to NOT hang with you?!!

xet!!!!

ireesponsible!! i wonder if she told you to tell us and yet you didn’t!!

do you know how much it costs to travel back and forth!! grrrrr…bad trip!!!! im really hating you guys right now!!! it’s a good thing you’re not replying to my messages!!or else..uLL really "see" me angry!!

gahd?!!!! i really wanna say the F word!!! aaaarrrrgghh1!!!!! FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

my keyboard is so totured right now!!!! aaaaaaaaaAAAAAA….fFFFFFFF…xet!xet!xet!!fak!fak!fak!fak!!!! that’s for each and everyone of you!!! gahd!!!!!!

so u know that other people have plans?!!! huhh?!! are u really that selfish?!!! are you really that self-centered?!! fak?!!u have no…..!!?!?!?!!? fak!!!!

spiderman 3 is not wortth the crap im goin througH?!!!so wat if i didn’t get to watch it?!! xet!!!

if i hadn’t traveled..i would have cxelebrated a birthday with my sister!!!?!! so you say..next year?!! HELLO????!!!!! Will my ate be turning 21 next year?!!!! a birthday only comes once a year?!?! stupid?!!!?!

i quote sir baroro, " mao ni nakapasa sa AHSE??? YOU’RE NOT WORTH IT!"…fak al of you?!!

if you show ur face this week, uL see how angry i am with you?!!! i’ll ignore you..and if u try to talk to me..uL see tha anger in my eyes..

for i know myseLF when i am angry…and i dont like it?!!! fak all you!!!!!!

FAK!!! i know one of u will read this..and a friend of one of u read this, please do tell them that…

I AM FACKING ANGRY WITH THEM!!!!!

FACK!!!! XET!!!!!

My anger?!!?!?!?!?!?!

xet!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM HATING ALL OF YOU!!!

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agoi!!! ahehe..nice au.. nalingAw ko ni siR aRt..

at firSt, na-disappoint jud ko kay dili si mam khanDz amu c.i..xa man untAh toh..tapos they suddenly chaNged tHe sked de to some people asking some favors (u know hu u are!!! scums of HELL!!! *exaj..XD) ..tapos ana..na-under mi sa amu TERROR teacher..daun la na pd mi na under ni mam khAndz..aus man gud jUd si mam..ke dghaN ko nakat-unan sa eYa bah didtOh cebu..

so now, ward duty is under sir aRT..

loading– we waited dpt sa guArd chuva sa Dr. Uy Hospital(DUH)..naa ra daay xa sa staxon..gisaka pah namu..minus points..plus paghtag ug patients, Muslim (not that i have something agenst them..they are just known to be uncooperative..that’s all..) amu px..but fortunately akoa ke educated..hehe..sabay..rehas maN guD mi edaD..^^

pagdUty- i really thot boring..lalala..daun..aUs..hands-on..azn..tanan..nice pd kay kaeLa niya mga nUrses bah!! so mga nuRses naay saleg sa amu..twagon pa jud ka if naay proCedure ipabuhAt..(awp..ako ginatwag koh!! hehe..XD),..naka-aSsist ko ug NGT insertion..yehey!! hehe…nakaTRY pd ko ug buTang ug CONDOM CATHETER..AHEhehe..agoi noi!! daun suGot pd amU c.i. na maghaTag mi ug IV med’s!!! ang saya!! ang pikas man gud ke diLi..kaya ang saYa!!ahehe..

naa puD ko nakat-unan sa eya atoHng ngdRugs study mi..d p jud nemu mafeel ang pressure..azn..kaLma lng..heheang uban kay TH azn trYing haRd..ow well..thats her..aw him para di mabuko..LOL..jowk ra oie..ahehe..^^

tapos..piRmi jud na dungAn mi ug lunch..tapos,,MANGHATAG XA UG SUD-AN!!!!! AHhehehe…un ang da bEst!!! azn!! first kay cUryy (tungod kay nhalangan xa..hehe..) daun chOpsuey (tungod kay daghan rah kaau sud-an)..daun ang stek niya (ambot nya..bsta nanghatag xa..)ahehe..happy kow!!

matud pah ni thea..ako daw eya partner..mu-deny ko..mu-insist ko na si Rachel..hehe..so ana xa ako daw ang left hand..awp..yehs na lng pd kow!! ahehehe..^^

now that ouR duTy is oVer..my dreaDed time has come..magCASE PRESENTATION mi!! mhaDLok juD ko basta amu sexon..MOST OF OUR CP’s ARE FAILURES!!! wa pah gani mi nagsabOt ron para ani..karon na ra bang tUesday!! unsah pd ning..atOt oie..basta..d ko mag-ulo2x ana.!! atot lng.. d nako gnhan mag-cramming!! if nhn mu!! bahala mU!! sumo!!

hahai..sheri an..i wish u are here..para i-unite mi..u know me bya..wa qy care if waLa’y care ang uban..–,..ambot na ani oie..

i so want this CP to be successful..if anything, it’s for the CLINICAL INSTRUCTOR!!! but i cant do this alone..D!!! letch mu!!

PS : tnx teris kay nikuyog ka atong niadto ko HP ganiha tapos la jpn ta’y nabuhat..tnx anyway..ana si strisboL..tnx da..kay kaw ang amu bridge!! ahehe..^^

tC mUng tanan!!! mwuah!!

eiFwiL