memoiRs Of tHe dyiNg

Hapit na mag-end ang March…

This means muhawa na jud siya..

I’ll be left here..

I’m gonna be alone again..

Well..

Not really..

Naa man ako barkada..

But lahi ra man jud kung siya di bah?

Unsaon man sad nakow..

Alangan ako siya pigilan sa iya kalipay?

Saon..

Lonely kaau ko..

I’m always thinking

What am I gonna do without him?

I guess I should move on..

Get through with life..

But I know life would be a lot better with him around..

I know in every joyful moment,

I would say “this would have been a lot more fun if he was here”

And I also know for a fact

That in every lonesome moment

I would say “this wouldn’t have happened with him around..”

Want him to stay but what if that would make him unhappy?

I don’t want him unhappy..

I don’t want to be selfish..

But if I won’t, I would get hurt.

I know for a fact that I’m gonna miss him..

I really don’t want him to go..

I can’t concentrate on my studies anymore..

I keep on thinking about him leaving..

I don’t want to..

But I can’t seem to stop myself..

What can I do?